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posted by misanthrope on Thursday, December 26, 2013 5:22 AM (back to top)

Yesterday I received my results for my first semester in NUS. My results were much worse than I’d expected them to be, and I wasn’t expecting them to be very high in the first place. I was very upset and disappointed with myself, and started to have a lot of self-doubts again. How the fuck did my results turn out like this? Why the fuck am I so dumb? What’s wrong with me? Why do I flunk all my exams? Why can’t I do well like the others?

I was also very disappointed because my fucking horrible results meant I could no longer proceed with the things I wanted to do, like applying for an internship in my summer holidays and applying for SEP. I felt so lost, I didn’t know what to do. What the fuck can I do anyway? Nothing much I think, except to fucking study hard and get at least 4.4 average for the next 2 semesters. Otherwise I’m really fucking screwed for the rest of my NUS life. I really really need a miracle for the next 2 semesters, especially the next semester. I’m really very worried now. Sigh. Cannot slack already next semester. 

I don’t have anyone to blame but myself. I can’t put the blame on anyone. I didn’t class part, I didn’t give good presentations, I can’t write well, I have poor time management during exams, I am really inefficient at doing work, I can’t give impromptu answers (probably because I don’t get much human interaction in my daily life), I didn’t make notes and revise regularly, I don’t work smart, and lastly I am just plain dumb most of the fucking time. I really, really, really gotta pull my socks up for the rest of my NUS life. This cannot do, it really can’t. And I am fucking sick of getting fucking lousy results. I can do better than this. I definitely can, I need to believe in myself and rectify all my mistakes and poor habits.

So, I'm gonna chiong with all my might in Y1S2. If I screw the next semester up again, that's it. I'm totally screwed for the rest of my NUS life. Imma compile a list of good habits to take up so that I can be a more productive and efficient person once I'm done researching which bloody module to take for the next semester. Actually I don't know why I'm so troubled over this lol. I can just S/U it if I don't get an A- at least for the module haha. But still I must be strategic in choosing my mod!